So today my head and heart are filled with a mixture of emotions and thoughts. Many of which kept me up most of the night in prayer before God.
Today we are just a few days to being in the sixth month of this pregnancy and that much closer to meeting this little guy.
Today also marks my due date for the precious little one that we lost in December.
I had not given it much thought until I got a call this week from a lactation consultant wondering if I had given birth yet. This led into a conversation with this unknowing dear lady about the miscarriage. She was very apologetic but it wasn't her fault... my file with them just had not been updated.
After sharing my new due date with her and hanging up the phone... the tears flowed freely as a scab on my heart was opened again. A scab that will forever leave a scar of the unknown child that I won't get to meet face to face until I get to heaven.
Isaiah 40:31 has been a great comfort as I have put my hope and trust in the Lord and He has renewed my strength.
I also can rejoice in the fact that God has truly blessed us with this little rainbow baby that is currently growing in my womb as a sign of His faithfulness and how He does hear prayer. Maybe not in our time but all the glory and praise goes to Him!
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